Mundane sickening things we consider lives

What do you mean when you say "I want to settle down."? I ask because i sure as hell don't want to settle down.
I want to settle down. Have a family, move to a nice little neighborhood where the yards houses and fences are all stale and cloned. I want to get a good paying office job so that i can come home from work and sit in front of my nice new 60 inch television and watch sports.
I want to settle down so that I can fall into a routine that at first bothers me because of how uneventful it is and how trapped I feel but then I am able to surrender to as I let my brain go numb. I want to be stuck in this dull lifeless routine for the rest of my life.
Hi, meet the boss and my wife, she's probably cheating on me with him, because she has a twisted view of love and is doing it so that i stay employed. Of course I probably don't notice this since I am more or less a pig in a cage on antibiotics. I have no care or concern for the world other than the fake emotions I put forward to seem "normal". I am slowly becoming an alcoholic, which I also do not notice. I scold my kids for the bad things they've done, or atleast the things that I consider bad. I am in my own little world, trapped, forever to repeat the same day over and over again until one day I die of what doctor's call "old age". I die lonely, I die emotionless, I die a robot.
So again, why is it that you want to settle down like this? I sure as hell never will.

I find this the most horrifying situation for any man. I will make sure I do not fall into such a situation. I would suggest you do the same.

Thank you,
Bob

Ramblings of a frustrated agnostic

Willpower is an amazing thing. It has caused people to use spiritual, devine reasoning, just because willpower overcame the odds. A man with the will to accomplish something can accomplish it, will can determine whether you live or die. A man's will determines his life. Now this said, I will not explain will away with a god or anything like that. I do believe that a god could exist but I will not write away my accomplishments to say that god did it and i was only a vessel. I will also not blame what evil may come from me on any kind of devil or demon. It is all my doing, and I will take responsibility for it all.
And while I'm on this rant I would like to say that it is almost contradictory to believe in a god and not in a parallel universes theorem. This is where the flaws in theory come in. If you believe in heaven, an extraterrestrial dimension not of this universe, then you believe in parallel dimensions. But if there is even one more dimension besides this universe and "heaven" then my multiple soul theory would become correct, even infinite duplicates of the same soul could exist. And now you can roughly see where the chaos confusion and improbabilities kick in. So what im saying is most religions are confusing, and poorly thought out, if not ignorant.

Sorry for the rough jumble of ideas, but tis what happens when one goes into a rant like such. It was a spur of the moment sort of thing, i didn't want to spend time sorting out my thoughts less i lose myself in the process and forget what i was talking about all together.
Anyways,
Peace, love, music,
Until next,
Charizard the almighty